離婚後，我們仍然住在同一個家。我知道他捨不得 Jason，常常望著他、替他拍照，也希望能陪他過生日。

後來 Jason 告訴我，爸爸經常望著他，令他覺得好像時刻被閉路電視看著，很不自在。我明白前夫的不捨，但也要聽見 Jason 的感受，於是建議他回香港生活。

昨天，我和 Jason 送他到市中心。我們一起吃了午飯，再陪他走到巴士站，看著他上車。道別時沒有眼淚，也沒有擁抱，就像送別一位朋友。過去八年，眼淚已經流過太多。

他離開後，Jason 嘆了一口氣，說：「我原本有一個好好的家庭，估唔到爸爸為咗另一個女人，令到個家破裂。」我知道，他仍然為失去原來的家難過。回到家後，我們也確實感到放鬆和自在。這兩種感受，可以同時存在。

二十多年一起走過的歲月，不會因為離婚而變得毫無重量。但當兩個人之間已經沒有多少愛，放手或許是對彼此最好的決定。走到這個十字路口，我們終於各自向前。

他有他的生活，我和 Jason 也翻開了新一頁。Jason 開始更有擔當，我們會互相照顧，一起過往後的日子。一直擔心我的家人和朋友，現在也可以放心了。

願他在香港好好生活。也願我和 Jason，帶著勇氣和盼望，走向屬於我們的將來。🍃

38|Going Our Separate Ways

After our divorce, we continued living under the same roof. I knew he found it hard to leave Jason. He often watched him and took photos of him, and he had hoped to stay until Jason’s birthday.

Later, Jason told me that being watched so often made him uncomfortable. He said it felt as though a CCTV camera was always pointed at him. I understood his father’s reluctance to leave, but I needed to listen to Jason too. So I suggested that he return to Hong Kong.

Yesterday, Jason and I went with him into the city centre. We had lunch together, then walked him to the bus stop and watched him board. There were no tears and no hugs. It felt like saying goodbye to a friend. I had already shed so many tears over the past eight years.

After he left, Jason sighed and said, “I had a good family. I never imagined Dad would break it apart for another woman.” I know he still grieves for the family we once had. Yet when we got home, we both felt more relaxed and at ease. Both feelings can exist at the same time.

More than twenty years together do not lose their meaning because of a divorce. But when there is little love left between two people, letting go may be the best choice for both of them. We have reached a crossroads, and now we are going our separate ways.

He has his life, and Jason and I are beginning a new chapter. Jason is taking on more responsibility, and we will look after each other as we move forward. Our family and friends have worried about us for a long time. I hope they can finally feel at ease.

I wish him well in Hong Kong. And I hope Jason and I can face what comes next with courage and hope. 🍃